Feelings of Weight Loss

The loss of y our body mass.

As each day passes, I struggle with myself. I have crossed one more goal. I have left the 200s behind. I have lost 137 pounds. But as I look in the mirror, I still see that fat person. I wear smaller clothes, have way too much energy to spend, and can do anything I want to. But that person in the mirror is still that fat person.

Everyone thinks weight loss is easy. Don't get me wrong; losing weight with bariatric surgery is easy. You can only eat small portions and if something doesn’t agree with you, you throw the whole day’s worth up. You must work out and struggle with loose skin. And still, that fat person is there.

I only sleep two to three hours a night. I have so much energy, my body wants to keep going and going.

So, what will it take for me to see me now? Everyone that sees me is so shocked at how good I look. Amazing, awesome, great job, and wow. Today with tears in my eyes I sat in the truck and realized it has been over 32+ years since I was this light. Now is the time to teach me I am thin. I am smaller. I am a new person.

So, when someone says bariatric surgery is easy. I smile and say, "No it isn't." I know what I have accomplished since October 12th, 2017. I have lost 137 pounds. 5x tops to large extra-large 26w pants down to 16w. And this weekend I had a yard sale and sold my plus size clothes. Yes, everything I have been through was worth it.

Now time for me to see me. So, if anyone has a struggle with their weight, you can lose it. You must want to. I am here as a sounding board. Yes, I have been there and gone through it and am still going through it. Next is skin removal of the stomach. Insurance will cover this because it is a hindrance. But the huge arms and saggy boobs will always be a reminder. I am not going back to being that fat person.

I hope this will help someone struggling in their life because no one's life is perfect. We must make it happen and we must succeed ourselves. I have accomplished 137 pounds in less than two years, and I have proved to myself I am worth it. God bless anyone who has read this whole post and I hope it helped you to understand my struggles. Thank you.